They Don't Understand

Some people just don't understand.

I know that they cares, really cares.

Yes they can easily say "Just keep holding, you can do it!"

No, I'm in the edge of this shit.

I already tried my best.

But you know what? It's mentally kills me.

I'm mentally hurts, so bad.

And they don't understand,

that I'm tired, I'm tired crying every damn days,

that I'm sick, mentally sick.

"我回家了“

我哥哥说，”我回家了“

那个句子。昨天他说了。

我也知道他的感觉，原来他想很高兴 with all the fame and spotlight, but then?

我也觉得那个感觉。

But it's great that he can go out of that company and follows his heart, he's already mature enough.

And me? I still stuck in here, with my major haunting me everyday till I have no time to eat, to have a proper sleep, a time for my self.

You just did good, Lu ge. I'm so proud of you.

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Well, forget that for a while. Now I'm gonna show you what I bring to college till Sunday to Friday.

1. My favorite backpack by Export Neosack, jeans with pretty laces on the front pocket. Bought this last year for college matters.
2. An umbrella! You'll never know how fast the weather changing. Actually this one is my Mom's, her stepbrother from Netherlands gave this to her a few years ago and still in a pretty good condition. Bravo.
3. My magenta binder. Well actually I only bring this in Monday, Wednesday and sometimes Friday. I usually only bring the papers because it's less heavy he.... he.... he....
4. My London notes, for random things. 
5. THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS, EVER. There's 3 series of this books.    
6. Floral pecil case, got this as my Christmas present from my aunt that came from Australia. It's so pretty :'3
7. A pastel wallet by Marie Claire. It reminds me of cotton candy.
8. Compact powder by Maybelline. Yes I'm using a little make up, so whut? :(
9. My sweetheart. A lip tint by Etude House, with the milky texture and smells like cherry. And the color is a pretty shade of pink. Me love it.
10. Er...... fresh care?
11. Strawberry fragrance by The Body Shop, but I rarely use this. I prefer baby talc all the time.
12. My iPod follows me, everywhere.
13. Because smartphone battery can't stay in a long time, power bank is a big help.
14. An earphone, of course.                                                                              

R to L: Grammar book, Reading book, Listening book.

My nightmare is 3 times scary that yours, ha!