What is Friend(s)?

It was a super random Tuesday afternoon, when I saw that post on Line which one of my best friend liked.

It's about, 

"Friends can break your heart too."

As I read all the things in it. it was like........ oh? I am so related to this.

Not long after that I sent a message to this best friend, saying that I really wanted to liked that post too, because lately I feels really related to it.

Then here goes our emotional conversation.

 "Is it the part of growing up, you started to lose some people that you call 'friend' or even 'best friend' "

Well I do know that as we grown up, they'll meet new friends, maybe cooler than me, more fun to hang out with than me, maybe more clicked to them than me. I know it all along. But hey, are they really have no time, or just a few seconds, to drop a simple message asking how're ya doing? 

Maybe they're too distracted by their own life now.

Maybe I'm not fun to hang out with anymore.

Or maybe I'm not on their priority list anymore, that I'm not even crossed on their mind.

I am a thin air for them.

Not important enough to remember, not important enough to checking am I okay or not.

Although some of them know my stories,

Although some of them know what difficulties I am facing,

Although I always started the conversation.

Although I always tried to see them.

Maybe if I'm ranting about this to them, they'll saiy "Don't be a baby.", "You're getting to emotional.".

So what if I am a baby?

So what if I am being emotional?

What if all I want is a friend to make sure I am okay, to remind me it'll be okay, to hear my cries, to comfort me.

At time like this, all I want is just disappear.