5 days wothout ya. 5 hari nih gak akan ketemu. Ternyata emang masih belum bisa lepas dari yang baru ini :') terlalu kece untuk dilupakan secepat ini. Kmrn gak berani ngeliat pas istirahat, padahal ada di tempat yang sama loh. Pas pulang sekolah baru nyesel gmn gitu. Haha, labil.
5 hari nih? fine lah hrs sabar aja, mau bgmn lagi?

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Break, broke, broken.
I found a new crush like 2 weeks ago. A junior. He's charm as prince, of course you know that charm prince is my type. I know his name because my classmate is his senior at photography club. She said that he didn't have a girlfriend, good news right? I have a chance, I thought so.
Today, as usual, me and my friends went to the canteen for lunch. I'm so excited to see him if we meet, just saw him from the distance is enough for me. But my friends keep telling me that I should introduce myself to him. Screw that, I'm not ready yet! When one of my friend called him, I just sat and keep holding my food and ate pieces by pieces. She called me to come to her and that junior. There's my junior's friends staring and laughing at us. The junior tried to hide his face from me and my friends. His friends yelled that he already have a girlfriend. Stabbed my heart for a moment. I heard his girlfriend is a cute one, can't compared with me. I know I'm unactractive, I was nothing. Finally, I didn't do anything. Ok. This was embrassing moment and hurts either. Kill me.
So....... I thought that I was ready for a new love, I think that I can get over this junior, but I was wrong. I'm still a baby chick. Haven't grown yet. I'm still afraid and easily get hurts. I never have a chance to have a relationship with someone I love, but I already had enough pain that keeps make me afraid to fall for someone.
It's enough for now. I won't love someone again for a moment, until it comes naturally.

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I watced Yukan Club yesterday, and I still missing them right now. Yukan Club stick 6 together, just like us guys! Especially my Kikumasamune Seishiro, I miss ya dudes. Seishiro always in Noriko sides, help her like a Mom and protect her like a Dad. You means that much for me. You teached me everything, protected me, cheered for me, .................. asdfghjklzxbncm I MISS THAT DUDE AS HELL :'( bet he don't even remember that I was his Noriko.

Hey, this Noriko of yours missing you so bad, do you even care?

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Doin' a photoshoot in my room today. Being a model felt good somehow. Before photoshoot we watched horror movie, I forgot the title but it was f*ckin scary! The ghost looks like Indonesian ghost, wtf with that? Insidious's ghost looks better than this one-_-

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Imma done with the prüfung, yay! The difficult one is Lesen, but I did my best for Hören, Schreiben and Sprechen. Hopes we're all pass the prüfung!

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After 2 weeks with damn full schedule and deutsch training, finally tomorrow is the day. A1 prüfung at Goethe Institut. If I can't win the ticket to Germany, at least I get the sertificate for a recomended university. Wish me and my friends luck!

I love that you know me. I love your facial expessions. I love the way you say my name. I love the way you want to tell me things. I love your smile. I love your laugh. I love that we have the same sense of humour. I love that we're on the same wavelength. I love the friendly flirting. I love our conversations. I love that you care, even if it's not the kind of care that I want. I love that you're never awkward around me. I love how you smell and how it lingers on my clothes. I love your hugs and how they're warm and safe. I love the way your eyes light up when you laugh. I love how you're such a geek sometimes. I love that I'm your favorite. I love that our hands fit together perfectly. I love that you're concerned about me. I love that you make me do that cliche sigh. I love how you make me burst into fits of laughter after everything you say, because you really are that funny to me. I love how you trust me. I love how we're bestfriends. I love that I can trust you. I love that you're close by. I love that I was able to know you. I love you.