Words

Sometimes there are things in life that you don't want to know but have to learn.
And then, there will be people who come into your life and make you realize that you had not been living until they had entered. They're that one person that you can't live without, but sometimes you just have to suck it up and do.

Chapter 5 Page 144

Heart beats fastColors and promisesHow to be braveHow can I love when I'm afraidTo fallBut watching you stand aloneAll of my doubtSuddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died eveydayWaiting for youDarlin' don't be afraidI have loved you for aThousand yeardI'll love you for aThousand more
Time stands stillbeauty in all she isI will be braveI will not let anythingTake awayWhat's standing in front of meEvery breathEvery hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died everydayDarlin' don't be afraidI have loved you for aThousand yearsI'll love you for aThousand more
And all along I believedI would find youTime has broughtYour heart to meI have loved you for aThousand yearsI'll love you for aThousand more

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years


Today in English Class, one of my friend sang this song. When I heard it, I was just .......... speechless. The lyrics just too touchy, I felt like cry somehow. Some lyrics, well I think was urgh-this-just-so-my-love--story. It's all about the past, haha.

Chapter 2 Page 37

I watced Yukan Club yesterday, and I still missing them right now. Yukan Club stick 6 together, just like us guys! Especially my Kikumasamune Seishiro, I miss ya dudes. Seishiro always in Noriko sides, help her like a Mom and protect her like a Dad. You means that much for me. You teached me everything, protected me, cheered for me, .................. asdfghjklzxbncm I MISS THAT DUDE AS HELL :'( bet he don't even remember that I was his Noriko.

Hey, this Noriko of yours missing you so bad, do you even care?

♥

Finally, I met him today.
I've ever had a dream, in my dream he's already changed or maybe just grown up?
And, dammit! Just lyk my bad dream comes true. Shit. Trully shit.
This is not the first time I'm cryin, but he's the first boy who made me cryin.
Seriously, I really cryin.
I just .......... dunno what I should say anymore
Speechless ..
:'''''''
Is he avoid me?
God, please, I really want the old him back
Meyo said to find another boy but, I can't. This feels lyk karma.
Dang that boy.

This time gue berasa gak tau apa-apa tentang lo. Padahal beberapa waktu lalu gue tau segalanya, catat ya, s-e-g-a-l-a-n-y-a. Gue tau jadwal lo, hari ini lo kemana, besok kemana, besoknya lagi kemana, seminggu lagi lo kemana, gue tau semua. Jam sekian sampe jam sekian pun gue hampir tau. Sekarang? Gue gak tau apa-apa. Sedikit pun. Elo kaya apa sekarang aja gue gatau. Yang gue tau lo masih berkeliaran diluar sana. Never have a time to meet me, to see me. Gue ajak sana sini tetep aja alesan inilah itulah, pada akhirnya gue cuma bisa pasrah kalo kemana-mana gak ada elo. Padalah yang gue incer itu ya dirinya-_-
Kangen? Banget.
Gak tau harus apa iniiiiii :'''
And now you doing ur best to avoid me, nangis lah gue oi, sadar gak sih nyakitin hati, jleb gitu, menohok, apalah sebutannya. Rasanya begitu lah. Yang jelas, gue kangen, gak ada yang bisa gue ceritain tentang ini, kangen banget, kebanget bangetan malah.
Di henfon gue ada playlist yang bisa dibilang lagu2nya seperti isi hati gue (cekile), hampir setiap hari gue dengerin. Love You Lately, Back To December, The Story Of Us. Yang paling ngena banget ya itu, Back To December, sampai gue terobsesi untuk belajar main gitar untuk bisa nyanyiin Back To December di depan doi. Berhubung gitarnya belum ada-_- dan gue blm bisa memainkannya, ada sedikit penundaan dulu sampai papa tercinta yang 'katanya' mau beliin gitar benar-benar membelikan saya gitar.

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your texting
Your sweet smile
So good to me
So right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

Taylor Swift - Back To December


That time was my fault, if I beg you to stay, we're not gonna like this.
This is doesn't mean that I hate what we used to be right now, I just ........ forget it
I'll never get you back. As I see all of my lifetime, you're the first one that I loved. Hachigoro, Iki and some of boys that I've ever said that I like him, are only a crush. You're more than just a crush.
You're my bestfriend, we've been friends for awhile now, and we've always been there for each other.
You can make me smile and cry sometimes no matter what time, place, or situation.
You helped me to believe in myself.
You teach me how to be strong.
You've grown on me.
You're the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I want you to know that. I love you.