Chapter 5 Page 144

Heart beats fastColors and promisesHow to be braveHow can I love when I'm afraidTo fallBut watching you stand aloneAll of my doubtSuddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died eveydayWaiting for youDarlin' don't be afraidI have loved you for aThousand yeardI'll love you for aThousand more
Time stands stillbeauty in all she isI will be braveI will not let anythingTake awayWhat's standing in front of meEvery breathEvery hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died everydayDarlin' don't be afraidI have loved you for aThousand yearsI'll love you for aThousand more
And all along I believedI would find youTime has broughtYour heart to meI have loved you for aThousand yearsI'll love you for aThousand more

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years


Today in English Class, one of my friend sang this song. When I heard it, I was just .......... speechless. The lyrics just too touchy, I felt like cry somehow. Some lyrics, well I think was urgh-this-just-so-my-love--story. It's all about the past, haha.

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your texting
Your sweet smile
So good to me
So right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

Taylor Swift - Back To December


That time was my fault, if I beg you to stay, we're not gonna like this.
This is doesn't mean that I hate what we used to be right now, I just ........ forget it
I'll never get you back. As I see all of my lifetime, you're the first one that I loved. Hachigoro, Iki and some of boys that I've ever said that I like him, are only a crush. You're more than just a crush.
You're my bestfriend, we've been friends for awhile now, and we've always been there for each other.
You can make me smile and cry sometimes no matter what time, place, or situation.
You helped me to believe in myself.
You teach me how to be strong.
You've grown on me.
You're the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I want you to know that. I love you.

Being loved by someone is wonderful. Even I never get a boyfrnd but I know how its like to be loved by someone.
The one who tried to get closer to me is a cheerful & gorgeous boy, I realize it. Call him Timmy. We're in the same club and became a classmate in grade 8th. He ask for my cellphone number & other girls in our club. The first time he text me is for tell me his cellphone number and we had a lil' chat. It continous everyday, he text me everyday. Sometimes its annoy me but most of his message made me smile and never make me bored. He's rush boy and never-stop-asking, kinda mature but more childish. And that's all my favorite side about him. We have a same hobbies, a lil' thing that made us different is Timmy always think about reality and me? Clumsy day dreamer. One time Timmy really made me worried, he playing with the boys from our class and he made his lips bleed, I texting him after I arrived at home. What I remember the most is he send me a cheer message when I went to the tournament, that's the sweetest thing he ever gave to me.
Gently but sure, he made me fall for him. Its my beginning and also a sad ending. I don't know what a stupid things that I've done at that time, he started to giving up. We had practise that noon, we switching a partner, and then Timmy is my partner. I can't faced him, my face getting hot and maybe turn into red. I don't know how 'bout Timmy, but I guess he must be same like me. Practise time was done. In the same day but in different time its all over. That night, Timmy didn't send me even just a one message. In the next day, Eky told me that Timmy chat with Cici, Timmy told Cici that when I become his partner, I don't wanna faced him 'cz I hate him and blablablablablabla. When I heard that, feels like I wanna scream AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA YOU, IDIOT!!! I CAN'T FACED YOU BECAUSE IM TOO SHY!!!!!!!! CAN'T YOU THINK ABOUT THAT REASON?????!!??????? WHY YOU GIVE UP JUST LIKE THAT?? URE REALLY AN IDIOT!!!! Its all ended just like that. No more text message from Timmy, its kinda lonely. I remember how sad am I when I told Adin about that. I'm too scared to look at Timmy. After that he get a girlfrnd, not a nice one for sure, and they're broke up so soon. I heard from my junior the reason why they're broke up is me. Wtf. Idiot. Why you're use that way to erase me frm ur memories? Its hurt ya know.
Finally, he get close to me again, as a friend, and as a bestfriend. Timmy already got a match girlfrnd. Yeah, she's adoreble, gorgeous, smart, beauty, cute, kind, sweet hm better than me in everything exactly. And now, I just can regret for what I've done in the past. I don't wanna feels hurt like that anymore.