Happy Birthday my beloved fiance!!

I wishing you all the greatest wish ever. Oh my god I can't believe you grown up this fast :') blah sounds like Im his mother zzzzz but, seriously! He grown up so fast since the last time he playing Arthur and The Vengeance of Maltazard. Mommy I want to see Freddie before he grown too up-_- (?) aaaaaaaaaaaaaa why this boy made me so fuckin crazy aaaaaaa I really really adore him ya know. I'd love in english and practise so hard in english because I wanted to meet him, sounds sweet and lovely, huh? Yap! Someday I'll meet that gorgeous boy! And in 14th February, I dedicated that day as "Freddie's Day" haha, everything in my phone is all about him:

see? its 6:06, F, Freddie

birthday greeting in twitter

and its me Fred, ur special little lady kyaaa><

Sigh... Freddie is not a kid anymore but me?-_- Im trully a kid zzzzz

Freddie said last year, "When you're eighteen, you can't act like a kid anymore." aw thats so mature and I hate it Fred, sorry. But yeaaa its just like you. I hate the fact that you must grown up Fred but, I'll grown up to and catch you in Cambridge! So wait for me and prepare ur self ;P

Bunch of hugs & kisses

Being loved by someone is wonderful. Even I never get a boyfrnd but I know how its like to be loved by someone.
The one who tried to get closer to me is a cheerful & gorgeous boy, I realize it. Call him Timmy. We're in the same club and became a classmate in grade 8th. He ask for my cellphone number & other girls in our club. The first time he text me is for tell me his cellphone number and we had a lil' chat. It continous everyday, he text me everyday. Sometimes its annoy me but most of his message made me smile and never make me bored. He's rush boy and never-stop-asking, kinda mature but more childish. And that's all my favorite side about him. We have a same hobbies, a lil' thing that made us different is Timmy always think about reality and me? Clumsy day dreamer. One time Timmy really made me worried, he playing with the boys from our class and he made his lips bleed, I texting him after I arrived at home. What I remember the most is he send me a cheer message when I went to the tournament, that's the sweetest thing he ever gave to me.
Gently but sure, he made me fall for him. Its my beginning and also a sad ending. I don't know what a stupid things that I've done at that time, he started to giving up. We had practise that noon, we switching a partner, and then Timmy is my partner. I can't faced him, my face getting hot and maybe turn into red. I don't know how 'bout Timmy, but I guess he must be same like me. Practise time was done. In the same day but in different time its all over. That night, Timmy didn't send me even just a one message. In the next day, Eky told me that Timmy chat with Cici, Timmy told Cici that when I become his partner, I don't wanna faced him 'cz I hate him and blablablablablabla. When I heard that, feels like I wanna scream AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA YOU, IDIOT!!! I CAN'T FACED YOU BECAUSE IM TOO SHY!!!!!!!! CAN'T YOU THINK ABOUT THAT REASON?????!!??????? WHY YOU GIVE UP JUST LIKE THAT?? URE REALLY AN IDIOT!!!! Its all ended just like that. No more text message from Timmy, its kinda lonely. I remember how sad am I when I told Adin about that. I'm too scared to look at Timmy. After that he get a girlfrnd, not a nice one for sure, and they're broke up so soon. I heard from my junior the reason why they're broke up is me. Wtf. Idiot. Why you're use that way to erase me frm ur memories? Its hurt ya know.
Finally, he get close to me again, as a friend, and as a bestfriend. Timmy already got a match girlfrnd. Yeah, she's adoreble, gorgeous, smart, beauty, cute, kind, sweet hm better than me in everything exactly. And now, I just can regret for what I've done in the past. I don't wanna feels hurt like that anymore.

The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up - Mark Iwaim

She's gorgeus, smart, sweet & awesome. New sunshine in my darkness. Hopes we can get along & keep our friendship forever.

I'm Sure That I'm Pathetic and Creep and Like That.

Hi there! I'm busy with school again, yup, exams and homeworks exactly and you know that I'm not good at studying so, I really tired act like I enjoying come to sucks school and meeting friends. Like I wearing a mask everytime 'till I'm home. I've told my Dad & Mom that I wanted to go another school in another country, I said Perth; Australia is maybe better for me 'cause as I told you, my auntie live there. Mom said, "Do ur best in ur high school, maybe u can study in another country without a cost frm ur parents.", that words, I really don't want to heard it. But Dad gimme a lil' happienes, jst for a while, "Do you want to spend ur high school's time in Aussie?", when he ask that I was jst like aaaaaaaaaarghhh is this a miracle????!?? But after then, "I can't let u rite now, but u can choose a university at there.", another fake words. Should I begging 'till they believe me that I'm super duper tired of this plain life? After new year's break I become more quiet calm & creep. Right now, I really don't care what I'm doing or what I'm thinking. If you really really know me, I've changed a lot. Not in a looks, but in habit, attitude or sumthin like that. I realize it of course, "The New Me" is absolutely sucks. I gettin don't understand what I written by my hand in my math, physics & chemistry books. I can't takin' control of my own imagination, sometimes it shown in the unright times. Wtf is going on with me? I need a long break from all this kind of shit. I want to go to some peacefully place to fix my brain and my heart. My bestfriends. I wish they're alway there whenever I need them but, this is not a movies or novels or comics. This isn't easy like ZWIIIIINK! and they're come when I'm crying. This fake life is just hurt me or kinda I hurt my self. I lied that I'm okay. I wearing mask almost all day long, maybe all weeks. I'm tired of everyting for sure. Even I think that I don't wanna meet my bestfriends this time, how rude. Sorry guys, I ♥ you all. But this time I don't want to meet one of you. You can still contact me on twitter, Blackerry Messanger or my handphone. I need a time for myself to thinking and keep believing.

Too Flat To Faced

Heya fellas!
We're gonna saying good-bye to this sweet January hm not sweet enough for sure. Im gettin' more stupid than before, and more calm. I spend all my time in my 'own world', yeah, even Im in school and that made me looks so.................. weird? that's right.
Soooooooo, where we start? Okay, let's talk about my Auntie & her son who lived in Aussie, they came here last week. We have a great dinner last Sunday. They brought me 2 jackets & some cool 'n cute clothes.
This week is kinda hell for me. In maths class on tuesday I got punish & also today-_- shit what a fckn teacher-_- ehm sorry for my terrible words, I become more weird than before cz' some problem. Geez I think this post is sososososo unimportan, i just miss blogging. So, see ya!







Oh wait!
I found a great words from Finding Neverland,

All great writers begin with a good leather binding and a respectable title.

Hug & Kisses

How Can I Forget A Best Part of My Life?

Yesterday I went to a Junior High School to practise taekwondo, red belt special training. Actually, Cici deceive me-_- and finally i came to practise. Dear Cici & Zackry, thanks for forcing me. If I didn't come, maybe I'll regret.
Don't ya know guys?
I almost forgot what it was like running without shoes.
I almost forgot how it feels to say numbers in Korean language.
I almost forgot what it was like beating so fast after running for a long time.
I almost forgot how serious I am now looking at a target to kick.
I always liked training for physical, speed and, body balance. Such as training for the tournament. Honestly it's better than taegeuk. Yesterday, while physical training, my gut feels pain, especially when I'm breathing. I wanted to cry 'cause this fucking pain, but it's so uncool. I got a break early. Im such a weak barbie, sit helpless, but, when I looked, I saw them ; Luthfan, Kak Yulia, Kak Ita, Fani, Zackry and Cici; they cheer me up. I realized that I had forgotten this part, the best part of my life. Yeah. Im a fighter. I became a fighter earlier than my other besties. I'd love this fighter world so fucking damn much. And now, Im back and I'll try to don't leaving this cool activities again.

Hem then, i started addicted with Shugo Chara. It's manga. Andin recomended that, thankies dearest :* and you know what? I found some lovely words:

I wonder where 'likes' become 'loves'. 'Likes' as in friend. 'Likes' as respect. There are so many different kinds of 'likes'. So when does 'likes' turn into 'loves'? Where's the boundary? - Nagihiko

People usually fall in love based on looks but, their true selves maybe very different from how they look. - Nagihiko

Thanks Nagihiko :') that words meaning a lot for me. Just like Amu-chan, "Im still a baby chick in love. No, Im still an egg."
I like Iki but, I didn't know the real Iki. I was only looking at him from the outside and that's isn't enough.
I just 'likes' Iki. How about 'loves'? It 'll come someday.

Hug & Kisses

2011 Spirits. 2011 Wishes. 2011 Words.

Happy New Year bluggies!

Hopeffuly this year we can more appreciate for what we have and what we get :)

Talking about New Year, how's ur new year's eve? Great? All countries closed this year with super-duper-amazing fireworks. Hopes next year I can celebrate the New Year in the Moon. I wanted to see the whole world turns to put fireworks. I want to see that from the special place, from Moon.

London, UK.

Disneyland, Hongkong, China.

Paris, France.

Singapore.

Sydney, Australia.

2011 Wishes

- Get through the school day with enthusiasm

- Signed XI-Bahasa

-Not lost my extraordinary imagination

- Longlasting friendship

- iTouch & PSP

- Astroboy Bag (I'm saving up for this, I must buy it this weekend!)

2011 Words

I like to imagine. I like makin' stories. I like watchin' movies. I'll live my days like I was in the story or movie. Just so you know, imagination is more imortant for me.

Huggies & Kisses